First off I will state that I have a history of drug abuse.I have been clean and sober for four years.I have not been treated well by many health professionals because of my history.I have had bleeding from my digestive tract for some time now and finally had became so emaciated from trying to just deal with it and my husband has had enough of seeing me suffer.That I had to call a doctor.I was called the office and was seen by a nurse. She seemed nice.Then here comes Doctor Potash who asked how I was doing I told him I was scared-and he asked why are you doing something wrong? I said no and began to feel uncomfortable.He went on to ask medical history, and I was completely open and honest-I told him I was a heroin addict and he was sighing and body language was terrible-He the asked how many children I had I told him six. Three are with me ages 7-4-2-He acted disgusted and asked me why I had so many children was I messed up?He abruptly got up told me to strip down to my bra and underwear and commented on the flaming guitar sweatshirt I was wearing as he rolled his eyes and walked out.He came back in alone. Smacked on my belly said "flip on your side." I figured he was going to start smacking on my back.Instead he jerked my underwear down stuck his finger in my ass snapped my underwear back up and said "no blood today." -Then told me meet me next door in my office. I felt like I was a peice of low life crap.I started crying and I just could'nt stop.He asked me why I was crying and I just had no words.My feelings were hurt.I have no description for the way I felt except guilty-guilty for being who I was.Yes there was a time when I was a less than desirable human being.But I have paid my dues-and paid dearly.I wish that people would not be so judgemental.I am a good mom and a good wife.I am so hurt by this doctor that I probably won't go back-I am sick of being treated like gum on thier shoes.